Day 1- Failure

As you can see, there has been quiet a bit of time between postings... I ended up starting my cleanse today... and failed.

Last night I started my smooth move tea and it was just fine. When I woke up I tried to do the salt water cleanse and I kicked that off of my plan within 4 sips. I was going to throw up if I continued. So I took a laxative instead. Then I took my first cup of the "lemon aid." It was okay. I continued on fine and I began getting a headache after about an hour after my second cup. I took a quick 20 minute nap and was just fine.

My day continued on normally. We went to Pearlridge mall and I swear that my nostrils have never been so keen into smells. haha. Like you know when you go to the mall and the smell of cookie corner entices you over there... well now multiply that by like a million. Note to self: Never go the mall when doing the cleanse.

Anyways, I was doing really well and got 5 of my glasses of the cleanse done for the day. I was over my cravings and doing fine, but I ran into somewhat of a roadblock because my mom is in Oahu right now and she needs to eat, SO, I broke the cleanse on the very first day...

My complaints for the day are:

1. NASTY TASTE IN MY MOUTH! I am not sure if you can chew on sugar free gum or anything during this cleanse, I am guessing a hard core cleanser would say "no." But I can see that being my biggest irritation when I jump into the cleanse full fledged. I ended up brushing my teeth like 5 times extra throughout the day just because my mouth had such a yucky taste in it.

2. Slight Headache: Nothing I can't get over, but enough to make you feel slightly weakened.

Good Things I learned today:

1. I can control my appetite! When reading other's experiences with this cleanse, most people said that day 1 was the worst. If that holds true for me, I could definitely do the full 10 days. It really wasn't that bad at all. I think it really made me realize how much I depend on food as a comfort when I am between activities, bored, or just feeling stressed out. I think that once I start this cleanse up again, and I complete it, I will feel even more empowered!

2. I EAT WAY TOO MUCH: Because I was trying to think of ways to cheat most of the day (like to just taste frosting on the cake or just swig some juice) I realized when I really did eat tonight that my body doesn't need nearly as much as I usually give it. So by only cleansing today, I realized how just small tastes or bites (very small portions) can be good when you get that craving throughout the day. =)

Overall, although I failed at my first attempt at the Master Cleanse, I know the reasons for me quitting weren't based on simply me giving into my cravings or anything, so I don't feel that bad. I know that when I do actually dive into the process fully, I will likely feel very good about myself and the process. I am going to give it a go again when I get back to Molokai and have less distracting circumstances that might tempt me!

Day 0: Testing Phase

Recently I have heard a lot about how great the "Master Cleanse" works and the awesome results that people have been getting from it. I have been very skeptical and I haven't been able to muster up enough will power to get myself to actually commit to the process. I have been putting it off because of school and finals that just finished up. I wanted to be able to put my full concentration into this in hope that I can stay strong. I was most inspired by a friend of mine who decided to try it a few weeks ago and she got some awesome results from it--- 20 pounds in 10 days. Although I know that this isn't specifically a weight loss program, I think if I am even able to loose a bit of weight, I will be inspired to continue the process of working out and eating right. It seems like for too long I have said "the first of next month I am going to start" and the months continue to pass without any real commitment to a regular work out regiment. So I am hoping this will be the start!

The reason for me starting the cleanse is basically my own personal dis satisfaction with how clothes are fitting me and my extra "chub" in my face, stomach, thighs, arms, and well, EVERYWHERE! Although I don't think that I am morbidly overweight at this point, I can feel my weight getting somewhat out of control, so I want to stop it before I don't recognize myself in the mirror anymore!! (A thought I have always been afraid of). So basically, I am hoping that this process will make me begin feeling more in control of my body weight. I figure that simply by getting a head start on loosing weight, I will continue that trend once I am done with the cleanse.

So today me and my cleanse partner and boyfriend, Jeremy, went out and got all the things that I will need for the cleanse: Grade B maple syrup, lemons, & cayenne pepper. This afternoon we tried the blend for the first time and we both were pleasantly surprised at how it tasted. I had this idea that it was going to taste ABSOLUTELY HORRIBLE and I was going to dread every part of the next 10 days. But, I think that it might be okay. I can definitely see where it could begin to taste like pine-sol after a few days, but I am still going to go for it. I am glad that you can drink tea and water along the way. Even though I am not a big tea drinker, I have a feeling that I will be looking forward to drinking it each day! =)

I contemplated how long I was going to try and do the cleanse for, especially because I think I am going to have a really hard time going for the full 10 days. I was going to try 4 at first and then give my body a break and then maybe go for 7 days, and then 10 days later on this summer. Yet, Jeremy convinced me to try the full 10 days with him. So hopefully we can do it! I am shooting high, hoping that I can make it. Right now I see the hardest part of the the next 10 days being the fact that I have a friends wedding to go to on the 26th and her bachelorette party 2 days before that. So I am hoping that those two occasions won't ruin it for me. BUT hopefully I can stay strong and be motivated by results!!

Okay, well now for the embarrassing stuff: I did my official weigh in this afternoon and I am 177.7 pounds right now. I am hoping to loose the 7.7 pounds during this process to bring me out of the 170s! More would be great, but 7.7 would be awesome!! =)

Well, I plan on updating at least once a day and I am going to try and treat this blog as my "therapy" when I am having food cravings! =)